To Whom It May Concern,

Life is a vicious circle and I don’t believe that I have the courage to continue. I understand that this is the easy way out. I also understand that death just might bring absolutely nothing. A nothing so strong that I wouldn’t even know of it’s existence. But the fact that there may actually be something past this is what I’m striving for. I would rather take a risk to find out than live day in and day out with the same monotonous bullshit. Wake up, put on a face, school, work, sleep, repeat. I’m desperate to know what death is. Maybe I’ll lay in a coffin, out of my body. With my mind still talking while my mouth has given up. I just want to know. I guess in my case you can say that curiosity really did kill the cat. In all honesty, as long as death isn’t life, I’ll be happier. To those who care, this wasn’t your fault. And you shouldn’t be sad. I’m not, anymore. 

-Ashley.

””“”“”“”“not too bad i guess”“”“”“”“

really?

did i really just write you paragraphS to get ‘wtf’?

it scares me that my best friend thinks that her life is perfect because she’s been talking to a guy for two weeks “”“”NONSTOP”“”” and he’s going to ask her to prom. but it’s cool i mean you don’t have to ask/care about how I’ve been talking to the same guy for seven months even though we can’t be together and have a super cute relationship going. no really its fine, don’t ask. I’m just stuck trying to figure out who changed, you or me?

i just recently had second thoughts omg this is gonna go downhill isn’t it

i wanna delete my facebook and tumblr and throw my phone out of the fucking window and just go somewhere. how great would that be?

can we just take a sec to remember how gorgeous andrew was in the summer omg with his slight tan and his BODY omg and his basketball shorts omg i cant

okay so

being with andrew is great and we are perfect for each other and i swear if we met just a liiiittle farther down the road then things would be outstanding. but right now it’s like watching paint dry. we’re trying to drive cross country without any gas. i just want to be able to go to the movies with him. or introduce him to my family. or see him ever. i miss him all the time. it’s pathetic to think that one person can mean so much. especially for me. im not saying anything will even come of this, but it would just be nice to give us a shot somewhere down the line. we’re way too good of an offer to pass up.

of course it’s questionable but what isn’ttttttt

It’s weird to know that I’ve made you my everything and you’ve actually done it back. I’m beginning to understand how Anna’s feeling and I feel so stupid but I feel so smart. It’s like I finally understand something bigger than myself. I miss you more than I’ve ever missed anyone and I love you more than I’ve ever loved anything. I can’t wait until we become something more than late night car rides and hiding in back rooms. You may not be perfect but I swear that you’re perfect for me. 

i miss you babyyyy, goodnight ♥

the letter he wrote though

its so CUTE

i cant get over it

tonight was flawless. 

“i know im gonna end up in love with you. probably within the next 15 seconds.”

hahhahaha you’re everything i could ask forrrr. 

every time i look at you it’s like the first time